Month: August 2010


  • one.
    I am not afraid to take risks, I’m afraid the risk won’t be worth it. We talk like we know what’s going on, but we don’t. We don’t know anything. We’re young and we’re gonna screw-up a lot. We’re gonna keep changing our minds and even sometimes our hearts. Through all that, the only real thing we can offer each other is forgiveness.

    two.
    It seems when you want someone, they don’t want you. And when someone wants you, you don’t want them. But, when you both want each other, something has to come around and mess it up.

    three.
    I fought for you, I really did. But you just sat there and let me go. That’s what hurts the most, knowing that you meant so much to me, when you didn’t even care to give me a second chance.


  • one.
    I get it life, ok? I get that not everything can be great at once. That something has to be a mess. Something MUST go wrong. In no possible way can every piece of my life fit together comfortably for any length of time. I understand that. You’ve taught me this well. But why did you have to take the happiest part? Why did you take my safety, my simple smiles, my heart and my love? You couldn’t have chosen a different part of my world to come crashing down? I mean, I’ll take it. You’ve given me worse. But for once, please just things fall into place. Please?

    two.
    You can never make him love you and even if you can, is that the kind of love you are willing to settle for?

    three.
    I literally can’t stop shaking, or crying. What the hell is wrong with me? I thought I was done with this, and with him. Goddamnit. I don’t know what to do anymore. Why is it so hard to be done with him?

    four.
    And I’m so hurt right now, so upset and disappointed. But it’s not all your fault, no, i blame myself. I shouldn’t have fallen so hard for someone who didn’t care.

    five.
    I felt my heart drop into my stomach. When you said you’ve been lying, that’s when I started crying.

    six.
    When you start believing you’re invisible, that’s when you should worry.

    seven.
    Am I ever gonna be enough?

    eight.
    You’re an asshole, to put it nicely. I want you out of my life but you have made sure that I will forever be reminded of you.

    nine.
    I don’t have many friends left in this area, they all went away whether it was in body or mind.

    ten.
    I want to fall into love so deeply that even I am clueless at how I got there.

    eleven.
    You didn’t even lie. No, you just beat around the truth with these nice, cryptic words. If you don’t want to lead me on then please, just let me go.


  • one.
    And I don’t understand why people build up high expectations and desires in others. It’s not fair to be led on, teased. Don’t you know it took me months to build this strong wall up? Don’t tear away at my foundation, especially when your motive is empty.

    two.
    Time is ticking away. Yes, you’re young. But the years fly. And soon, you’ll be wondering what would have happened if you would have spoken what was inside your heart.

    three.
    Before you think of giving up on someone, you have to remember why you are holding on.

    four.
    I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. If i went back and told you how much you mattered to me maybe, just maybe, you would still be by my side

    five.
    When you’re at the top, remember what if felt like at the bottom. When you’re at the bottom, remember what it felt like at the top.  Good doesn’t last forever. Neither does bad.

    six.
    We go to school every day. We learn pointless things, but we are never taught how to love ourselves. We aren’t taught how to make moments last. But I think the most unfair thing, is that at the end of high school, we are tested on something that we were never taught. We have to stand in front of each other and say goodbye.

    seven.
    Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.

    eight.
    High school changes people. Some for the better, some for the worst. But if one thing is true; you find out who your real friends are.

    nine.
    I can’t really tell if you are really flirting with me, or just being extra friendly.

    ten.
    Most girls say they want a fairy tale, but you taught me that that’s not really what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me, and laugh at my jokes that aren’t funny. Someone who will wrestle with me, and not let me win just because I’m a girl. Yeah, riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice, but playing thumb-war with you seems so much better.

    eleven.
    Fate decides who comes into your life, but its up to you to decide who stays in it.

    twelve.
    I wish you’d just pretend that seeing me hurts. That when you look at me, you can’t help but ignore the lump in your throat. But no, without me, you look… happy.

    thirteen.
    Beware of the thoughts that come at night.

    fourteen.
    You broke down all of my walls. I let you in further than I ever let anyone else. And now, it’s time to rebuild them. One day I’ll find someone who’s really worth breaking them down.

    fifteen.
    I know that I should probably hurt so bad but I can’t feel a thing. I know that I should probably say something but I can barely breathe. And I’m sorry if I’m giving up too easy, I just don’t have the strength to fight any more.


  • one.
    And I know it’s tough to reconsider what you thought was love.

    two.
    He’s the guy that I so desperately try to push out of my head while at the same time cling to our memories with all my might. He’s the guy that I hate because I love him and I love him because I hate him. He’s the guy that no matter what he does to himself or to me, I’ll always love him. I knew him really well at one point, then he got lost, I tried finding him, but realized he’s got to find his own way back. Back to me? Maybe. I keep hoping that this will be my romantic love story, happy ending and all. But sadly I’m preparing myself, my heart, for yet another disappointment.

    three.
    Time doesn’t heal the pain. It just gives you… well, time. Time to push it to the back of your mind and time to learn how to deal with it. But the pain, it stays.


  • one.
    I’m not looking to fall in love. I’m not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who’s not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?

    two.
    It’s not about what happened in the past, or what you think might happen  in the future. It’s about the ride. & you know what? When you least expect it, something great might come along. Something better than you ever planned for.

    three.
    He’s that guy that you’d want to hang out with even if you weren’t dating him, and he’s cute in that kinda way that’s sorta like…you know in the movies, that guy you want the girl to end up with that everybody pretends isn’t cute, but really is.

    four.
    Now I understand why some people get themselves drunk. It’s not because they just want to get wasted but because they want to escape each killing moment they spent every fucking night thinking about what’s happening with their damn life. Of course they don’t forget their problems. At least they don’t spend the night crying themselves to sleep.


  • one.
    Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn’t change anything. It just messes with your mind and steals your happiness.

    two.
    It’s not even you that I really want back, it’s the pieces of me you took with you when you left. When I lost you I didn’t know I would lose me too.

    three.
    Sometimes you need to step outside, get some air, and remind yourself of who you are and where you want to be.


  • one.
    And at the end of the day, all we really want is to be close to somebody.

    two.
    Sometimes she thinks she’s strong. Sometimes she thinks she’s gone,
    past the point of feeling anything at all. Sometimes she’s sure she’s crazy.
    Sometimes she feels like maybe the only way to survive is to stay angry.

    three.
    Blink if you want me.

    four.
    I am made of one hundred percent flaws, and I can promise there
    is not one ounce of perfection in me. but, good intentions hold me
    together, and I hope that counts for something.

    five.
    One moment can change your mind, one look can change your heart,
    & one person can change your destiny.


  • one.
    That’s what I love about the ocean. No matter how beautiful it is, you must never underestimate its violence.

    two.
    What I’ve learned is not to change who you are, because eventually you are going to run out of things to become.

    three.
    Even something really beautiful can be broken sometimes.

    four.
    Everything was perfect, until you decided I wasn’t.

    five.
    Even though I complain about life and society, I still think it’s beautiful.

    six.
    People keep saying always follow your heart. But when your heart is broken in so many pieces. Tell me, which piece should you follow?

    seven.
    I just wanna run away. Not cause things are bad, or cause there’s something to run from.There’s just nothing in particular keeping me here.

    eight.
    You think you want to die, but in reality, you just want to be saved.

    nine.
    I guess you can say I’m complicated, but I’d rather be difficult than easy any day.

    ten.
    It was just one of those mornings where I sat up in bed and wondered what the fuck I’ve been doing all my life.

    eleven.
    I am absolutely terrified of the dark. But sometimes I like to walk around in it, just to feel invisible for a little bit.


  • one.
    Yea, I’ve held it all together. But a night like this is begging me to fall apart.

    two.
    Life is too ironic to fully understand. It takes sadness to know what happiness is. Noise to appreciate silence. And absence to value presence.

    three.
    It doesn’t make sense to let go of something you had for so long, but it also doesn’t make sense to hold on when nothing’s there.

    four.
    I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better of letting go. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t really have.
    Some of us say we’d rather have that then nothing at all, but the truth is ; to have it half way is harder then not having it all.

    five.
    You will never be younger than you are at this very moment.

    six.
    A person doesn’t have to be perfect to be exactly what you need.

    seven.
    There’s another thing to learn about tears – They can’t make somebody who doesn’t love you anymore love you again.